Saturday, February 23, 2013

Thoughts and Irrational Fears

I love waking up on the weekends and the rest of the family is still in bed. It's lovely to have these quiet moments to myself, sipping my cup o joe, and reflecting on the week. I have been a little stressed, worrying about things. Things being, my hubby's new hours, my crazy appetite, and the pending move.
Yes, you read correctly. We bought a house, and will be moving out of our little cabin. This home buying stuff is not an easy thing, yet I don't remember it being so difficult when we bought our first home. Though our first home was a brand new track home, and we were living with my mother at the time.  No need in giving notice, or worrying about things falling through, and being homeless. That what I'm really worried about right now! I'm afraid that things will not work out on our new home, that the loan will fall through and by May, we'll be without a home. I do have to say I had irrational fears with our first home.  Once we actually moved into our house, I was waiting for someone to come to our door and said that they made a mistake, and the house was no longer ours! I know CRAZY! But I do know, that I'm not the only one who's ever felt this way so it makes feel a little better, and yet I'm also not constantly thinking this doom and gloom. I am so very excited! Excited to have a place of our own again. OUR OWN! No more room sharing, unless we have visitors! No more climbing over one another because we'll have more space! Painting! I cannot wait to paint, and paint everything WHITE!! A white,  pretty, cheerful house! With beautiful flowers, a larger garden, and hopefully a few chickens! It's a dream come true, and the very best part is that all the schools are in walking distance from our sweet little home, and the local library is about three miles away! Be still my heart!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Hello, Remember Me?

Hello friends! I cannot believe how much time has past since I last posted. Life had gotten in the way, and sometimes you just have to put things on hold until you feel in your heart that your ready to begin again. So this is my new beginning.

Life has been good for us. Last October hubby started a new job, which has been a tremendous blessing  to our family. I cannot tell how the increase in his income has given us such a feeling of security, and room to breath. It is not easy living on a budget of $200 a month for groceries for a family of four, and often we would run out of food by the end of the month. Now if I'm running low on food, I don't have to worry about where I'll be pulling that money from in order to go get! God is good! Hubby loves his new job, and his co-workers. He comes home happy now, and does not dread going into work everyday. I am so very proud of him for all his hard work and determination to do whatever he can to take care of his family!

With this new job, we now feel that we can start shopping for a home of our own, and are in the process of applying for a USDA loan. We're in no hurry and want to make sure we find the perfect home, hopefully with some acreage so that we can have a larger garden, chickens, and just room to grow. We've been looking at another cabin in Gig Harbor. It has plenty of land, even with a large creek so the boys can still fish, but the house will need some work cosmetically. It's very sixties on the inside, with crazy wallpaper and brown/gold shag carpet, but it has amazing potential!  Still, all that work will need time and money. Is that really something that we are ready to commit to? My mind says heck yeah, we could do this, but my heart is quietly saying, this is not the time now, keep looking, and you will find what you need.

One thing for sure, I will miss this sweet cabin by the Green River. I will miss the long drive down Green Valley Road, Green Valley Meats, Mosby's Farm Stand, our lovely views and bonfires by the river during the summertime. It's was four years this last October since we moved here in the cabin from  Southern California.  I was not ready to let go, but now I feel that I have embraced my new "country" life, the slower pace of Washington state and I am so looking forward to the next chapter it has to offer.